ohhhh yesss!!! finaly i've got the damn fucking chance to update my blog... well, nothing new to write, my life is boring y'know.... well, except for three things that bothered me now....

 1st, my love of my life, a.k.a. "my obssession" is nowhere to be found, i don't know any of "my obssessions"'s contact numbers, and hell i'm dying to see, touch and hold that thing which is a good excuse for a "beautiful piece of art that you just want to hold (ok! change hold to fuck) but can't because the museum doesn't allow so".... for short (and for stupidly innocent enough) I MISS THAT THING!!

 2nd, my real clinical obssession, my "raven black shining angel" which is a good excuse for a "fucking toy that you can't fuck because you're too big for it" kind of thing... well, the problem is that i want to over come my obssession with that thing, it's just that that thing is my classmate and is always accessible at any moment i could want to (which is always always) but i can't use that thing there because i'm not the one who pays for my tuition fees (you know what i'm saying?).... and yes my libido is soooo high you could call it a skyscrapper....

 last is dat i have a very morbid/scary/adventure dream and i think it shows me my future, though i am not so certain about it, it's just bothers me because i've got this dream that had two outcomes, normally you would only have a single outcome, but i dreamt it twice and the second time is different from the first one....

 well, that's it for now, i try to update it more often because our semestral break is nearing and i could do lts of more innocent things to do like updating my blog, hell! i love red, bloody red to be exact but this blog is just too much to be handle by my eyes... well ta-da... (^-^)Y

guten tag! well not actually for me... sumakit ung ulo ko sa ginawa ko kanina... i shudn't have done dat ya'know... but.........

 oki, i'll tell you d fucking reason.... i'm sort of confuse sa feelings ko towards kay.... uhmmm... let's call dat person Raven nalang... so, i'm confse on my feelings with Raven, i dnt know if i'm beginning to fall in love with that beauty, but i know i lust over dat body!! damn, i rily want to enter *dat* body.... okie, i'm settled with dat, but lately, i just want more from Raven... den i start to ogle.... not a gud sign ne? i think so too.... i think... yes think... dat i love dat person....

so, i ask my friend, Nightingale, i asked her to choose between my left hand or my right hand.... she choose my right hand.... the condition dat i impose myself is dat wen she choose my left, i'll tell my feelings for Raven to Raven, gets? but if she chooses my right hand, i'll let the oppurtunity pass.... hell! Raven is all alone for my plans!!! no cliques to talk to, not even dat much classmates to see anything!! but after i told Nightingale d reason i made her choose, Raven left d classroom....

d damn problem is dat, i've got a pride boost!!! why is it dat everything i've got to do relies on the choice of other people?? i hated it... but wat i hated most is why is it dat i'm scared to death when i'm going to tell Raven my feelings!!

 d bale sana kung un lang d b??? but, NOOO!!!! earlier, nabwisit ako sa kaaway koh!!! may paguusapan sana kami ng mga kaklase ko para sa isang project, skul project ok?, nang bigla pa namang sumingit!! ndi 2loy masabi sakin ng kaklase ko ung sasabihin nya! in d long run after ndi mapakiusapan na umalis, ako nalang ang umalis.... nakakabwisit na eh..... ayoko panamang mawalan ng kontrol sa skul... baka nasa muntinlupa na ko.... tpos un dapat sasabihin sakin, sinulat nalang ng kaklase koh.... ndi patas un!!! ayoko ng ganun... kung may sasabihin ka, tell me, ndi isusulat mo, kc, tinanggalan mo ko ng karapatan na mag-react, d ko nakita sa mukha mo na seryoso ka, at ang cheap pa ng papel!!! puh-lease!!! galangin nyo nga ako!! parang wala akong respeto sa inya ah!!!

 in d end nagkaron ako ng, hate to say dis but, emotional overload.... kesa umiyak ako, dun ako sa sulok nagbuhos ng galit.... stupid "Smashing Blue"....,. hell.... dats one hell of a fucking song dats nid a fucking dance..... dun sumakit ang ulo koh.... nakakabingi kaya ung music!!! wel... dats wat i nid.... to drown in a pool of loud music to 4get....

anyway..... un na un.... malapit na pre-lims.... wish me luck!!!

it's so nice to be back at my lair.... i dnt know wer to start!!!

 dats foolish of me ne?? well... 2cam is getting kinda cute!!! we are starting to like each other... comunication gaps are now fading and the tests are getting sillier!!!

eco.... 2 tests past and i got a hell for scores!!! puro bagsak!!! lalo na ung 2nd very surprising and humiliating test!!! lahat ba naman ng tinanong eh ndi nya nadiscuss (para sa mga tanga... i love using hyperbole...) ung seatmate ko pa... madalas pagtripan ni prof!! *shields myself from Jane's wrath*

ung ibang test??? wala na akung pakilam dun... di ko na nga naaalala na nagquiz kami sa ibang subject...

btw... sa mga classmates koh na nagtatanong kung bkit ako may tatlong yarda ng ribbon sa right arm koh... e2 ang mga sagot ayon sa gus2 nyong tngapin...

 shortest reply....   just because

fashion sense na reply...   para balnce, may watch ako sa left eh...

 sexual reply...    i am into BDSM, i'm a Dom, if you dnt know wat BDSM is... search d net... on line ka nanaman.... i really love to see a certain classmate of ours tied on a ribbon... sa mga dating 1bam, alam ko may hinala na kau kung cno, so, SHUT UP!! *blushing*

spiritual reply...    i'm into a sort of witchcraft, but wat i do is not totally witchcraft, un ang intindi koh... bka magalit si aya eh...

emotional reply...    i try to bind away my emotions for sooo many reasons...

love reply...    it serves as a reminder dat i cudnt love d person i really love... d 3 yards signify the 3 persons who i actually cared, loved and yearned for... black signifies cleanliness n blindness, wen ders nothing, ders black....

 well... dat covers my ribbon... hehehe

yehey!!! first week ng class koh and i feel so happy...  cyempre nandun ung mga kaklase koh nung 1st yir palang me... *wags 1Bam flag* cyampre kadaldalan ko agad c ate eah.... and guess wat... may kasama kami na C am.. they look like a gud bunch...  

der contents are sooooo gud!!! yummy!!!  

but of kors, its not ol gud... nagmukha akong utusan!!! kung bkit panaman kcng nasa harapan me...

 ung laptop pls... ung lights pls... dis and dat... damn!!  its not dat i hate running errands but i hate the "running" part... i swear may tag na me na "utusan ng mga prof" o kaya "sipsip sa mga prof" sa mga classmates koh, but hey!! at least i cud get something beneficial at that () and to think na gus2 koh na ndi me pinapansin ng mga tao...

 to top dat! pag naghahanap ng volunteer 4 watever reason ung mga profs tingin clang lahat sakin!!  pati sa prayer!!!

 latest bit... mukhang may galit na kagad sakin sa klase... i heard a girl sa harapan na nagsalita ng "mr.president" nung dumaan me... i think me ung pinatatamaan... i dnt blame her.. i actually blame myself for doing those things... i mean nagmukha me na "vacuum" w/c i'm not...

 wala pa kaming officers but i wont be running 4 any position... maliban nalang kung meron dung s** position... hehehe....  horny bastard....